yellowducky's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- The Worry Pyramid Yesterday I told my boss that I was looking for another job. It went well. She understands, and I'll be able to volunteer here after I move on. So far, only KB and the Crisis Counselor know. I want to keep it pretty quiet from my co-workers until I get something concrete. I did turn in my resume yesterday for a job I really want. It's in the Counseling Department at ASU, so it has tuition waiver, there's substantially more money involved than I make now, it would involve crisis intervention skills as well as office skills (both of which I possess). It's the perfect job! I could actually start my masters. Best of all, the health insurance is CIGNA, so I can keep my same doctor and neurologist! Wahoo! So, those of you who pray, pray for me to get this, those of you who cross your fingers, do so. If you do anything else, do that. Thanks. ***************************************** I'm worried about Lil' Boy. That's my brother for those of you who haven't picked up on it yet. The irony of the nickname is that the boy approaches 6'3 and I'm 5'4, yet he's my little brother :(. Mother nature just has an unfair sense of humor. Anyway, our last conversation ended a little abruptly, he had been telling me about some trouble he's having. Now I'm worried about him. ***************************************** My dear friend's husband walked out on her and their 5 month baby. She's a school teacher and she's paid off all his debt and put him through school. Now he's just walked out on her. He turned off the power and water and phone. He's made her miserable, and she hasn't told anybody. She feels like a failure. I can't believe I didn't see what was going one--I'm trained to see these things! I'm so worried about her. **************************************** My little worry pyramid is a little top heavy at the moment. Have I ever explained my worry pyramid? It goes like this: I have all my friends and loved ones in little boxes in a pyramid. If I'm less concerned about them, they are on the base of the pyramid. If I'm more concerned about them, they're on the top. Right now my pyramid is upside down. **************************************** I actually had an honest conversation with "Ungerman". I told him that I was worried about him. That it was obvious that he was miserable. He said that was a pretty accurate description of his emotional state. I let him know that I was still there for him if he needed someone to talk to, and left it at that. It's as much as I can do in his situation. I have to let go of it now, unless he calls me. Besides, I have too many other concerns. **************************************** My aunt decided that the family dinner (after the funeral) should be at the local soup kitchen. ??????????????? Now, I realize that we are a bunch of red neck hicks. That is truly who I am, as much as I like to dress myself up and hide it in big city ways, but none of us are destitute. I just don't get it (said with my southern accent that I don't use anymore unless I want to). Oh well. Chalk it up to another weird family moment. 8:51 a.m. - February 11, 2003 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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