yellowducky's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Disappointing Update On \"U\" Well, the dinner thing did not happen. There was good reason, it doesn't matter what, but the result is that the talk did not happen. So I tried to call him Monday night to see if we could chat, he asked if he could call me back 'cause he was in the middle of something with his roomate. It's Friday now, and he still hasn't called. I'm ticked off. The next time I see him I'm going to tell him that he's acting like a jerk. He was always the one telling me that shutting him out was the worst thing someone could do to him. That's exactly what he's doing to me! I'm sick of it. I'm going to tell him that he's a jerk. He always gets so mad at me when I let people treat me badly, and that what he's doing right now. I'm sorry I wigged out on him, but I was scared, and he knows I do awful, humiliating things when I'm scared. This is the bad thing about developing romantic feelings for your best friend. You know eachother so well that you expect things to be perfect, but in reality, all your relationship quirks are simply magnified. If he was any other guy I would have walked away a month ago and never looked back. I'm mad and hurt. If he's sick of me and wants me to leave him alone, he needs to just tell me that. Mr. People Should Be Able to Be Honest At All Times. Where's the honesty in what he's doing right now? *************************************** I was supposed to have lunch with the Pilot yesterday. He was to be in town for a few hours, but then his flight plans were changed. That's the problem with being friends with a pilot~he's all over the place. Instead I went out to lunch with Jeff. Good ol' Jeff. I wish I could fall in love with him. He would be an excellent husband. There's just no chemistry. *************************************** I went to the Keith Urban concert at the AZ State Fair last night. It was so incredible. The man has such sex appeal, and when he talks his accent (he's from Australia) makes me was to jump on him. "I put my blue jeans on, I put my old blue jeans on." *************************************** My nephew had his appendix out this week. There was nothing wrong with it. He had a severe stomach infection that mimicked appendicitis. My adorable, innocent nephew. He and his twin turn 8 in November and it kills me that he's sick. A child comes into your life and you give your heart to him. If anything happens to him-injury or illness or anything-it tears you apart. You never want bad things to happen to any child--but especially one that you love. He came out of anesthesia asking for Mommy and Daddy and Levi (his twin) and Aunt Ducky and Uncle and Grandma and Grandpa. He is excited that I have the same scar, though. He's on IV antibiotics right now, and though they don't know what caused the infection in the first place, it looks like it's going to be ok. 8:34 a.m. - October 25, 2002 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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